Thursday, October 23, 2008

A Sad Sad Situation...

Like I promised you before, I'd pour out my thoughts whether they're happy or not. Remember my new crush who agreed to go to movie (yesterday) and gay pub (today) with me? Well, it didn't happen =[

Yesterday, he was occupied with his sister's birthday and today he was busy with work (well, I was kinda busy with an evening course as well). Maybe he really had a hectic week, maybe I was too desperate to be loved. Either way, I was still disappointed (and upset) that I wasn't able to spend some quality time with him.

Having said that, after all our endless text messages throughout the week, I seriously don't think he's making up excuses to avoid seeing me. What I don't understand is why he said yes, then no. Doesn't he realise how I'm feeling?

I guess sometimes things don't go the way we want them to. Although I'm sad, I make myself very clear that I won't throw myself at him as we only had our first 'date' but at the same time I refuse to give up on him until he says no to my face. Well, let's see how next week goes...

10 comments:

Justin said...

Pr8, I have a similar story to tell you from across the sea in the states. I knew a boy for a few days just before he was starting school (we had a mutual friend who introduced us) and we really got to know one another. He was a sweetheart, but short (hot) story short, when he had to go away to school, I let him borrow a calculator for his math entry exam. Throughout the next month or so I spent my annoyance sending him messages, leaving messages, and bugging mutual friends to get him to get back to me because he had the annoying tendency to message me a little message every other week or so asking how things are and such. So long story short, he finally got in touch with me and I finally got my silly calculator back from him. Later on, I learned, while he was at school being a college student for the first time, he had met another guy, gotten himself involved in things way over his head, and basically while he still liked me, his infatuation with college overruled whatever infatuation he had left with me. His attitude towards having a relationship with me wasn't strong enough for me to therefore want to sustain a relationship with him. People need to have the right attitude to know one another; if someone tends to have their heart in the right place but their body never gets in gear, it is because they aren't valuing you highly enough every time they see your text messages, are reminded of you, etc. As in my case, his relationship towards having a relationship with me wasn't strong because he wasn't even able to commit to that. He became an ignorant brat, basically, because he lost his basic human skills in recognizing 'people want you to get back to them!' 'If I don't get back to soandso, isn't he still living on the same earth as me? Aren't his thoughts still circulating about my not getting back to him?' - On some level, that's what is going on in flakey guys' heads. Being a flake is bad; as is not getting in touch with someone when all they want is to see you. My final point, Pr8, is that until he gets his act together and takes his time to put everything aside for however long and say a solid hello, the relationship may not be worth continuing. I cherish the relationship I did have with my friend because of how short it was. To try and continue it when he's obviously in another place in life is only putting a strain on me, and also eventually (when he realizes it), putting a strain on him. It's best to listen to Leona Lewis and Adele when you have a chance. They've got all the answers.

-Justin

Justin said...

One more thing, Pr8; take your time with making decisions and don't rush things. You have a right to be loved; it isn't fair for you to put all of your hopes and needs on him (which I don't think you're doing), and it isn't right for him to string you along if he can't commit. I guess what I'm saying is, if you feel its worth waiting for him to get his act together and finally open his eyes, you be the judge. A hard day is one thing, a hard week is another. Redemption is the key here, he needs to show his attitude towards knowing you is worth the time spent knowing him. Otherwise, he's just another entry; and it is best to be healthy and pragmatic, and continue on with the little happinesses in life.

Anonymous said...

Hey Will :-) Don't worry - I'm sure he had good reasons. Your feelings for him are surely stronger... but his feelings for you may grow. So let it flow and let him know how you feel. Good luck!

Hugs from Switzerland, Marcel

Anonymous said...

Easy Tiger The best things come to those that wait! and i agree with what you say he was hardly going to waste time sending endless text messages if he was not interested it looks like events have conspired against you this week thats all how about suggesting a nice day time fun date for say Sunday afternoon, I shall let you into a little secret last weekend myself a 40yo and my 39yo date went to the Zoo for the afternoon childish? yes! Fun? hell yes, seeing him again? have done 3 times this week all silly dates but he sees it as charming. Good luck and keep us posted

Joseph said...

Aaaaw Cupcake ;_; I'm so sorry...

Hey, wait a minute, no need to worry, somehow, deep down, I still got this good vibe about you on this; So cheer up!

Keep it to messaging as it's working & propose something from time to time as the last anonymous said...

Love's around the corner, go & fetch it!

Joseph said...

As I was posting this I wondered if he reads your blog or if he even know about it, maybe he's not interested on having his love life, even anonymously, told & discussed on the net?!

Have you talked about it? Might be interesting to know where he stands about it.

As the Romans said: "Felix qui potuit rerum cognoscere causas" Happy the one who knows things' causes...

Yeah, I know, culture is like jam: the less you have the more you spread it...

By the way, I love bluberry jam!

JB said...

Nevermore to feel the pain
The heart collector sang
And I won't be feeling hollow for so long
Nevermore to feel the pain
The words fall out like fire
Just believe when you can't believe anymore

Anonymous said...

I think we should hesitate before embarking, it may be a little "nervous" to the idea of setting couple? His family knows that it is gay?
I think you should expect it will be better prepared after more thought about your relationship.
Mikele
http://whenthelipsandtheskinremember.blogspot.com/

Michael said...

pal, don't waste your time sinking in despair, if you think he is your man - go after him until he says 'no' ... or disappears without a trace ( as was my case :( )
now, here's a hug *hugs* :D

~mista [s.h.a.n.d.y.e]~ said...

keep it cool bro...
i am sensing a diffrent vibe with this one...
hehe...
all the best...
perhaps you can drop him a message... you know.. those casual 'hye' message that sounded concern but not desperate...
hehe...
keep us updated ok?