Sunday, October 07, 2012


I'm lonely and I feel lonely. It's something I'll never wanna admit to myself but I've slowly come to term with it especially after the recent event with Peter Pan.

The thing is, I realise that I've made the same mistake over and over again of being lonely and kept seeking a companion to love and/or to share my life and as soon as I met someone who showed me some affection, I created and lived in a bubble of 'happiness' while ignored all the obivious warning signs until one day when the bubble popped - I was hurt and sad.

This has to STOP! And one of the ways to end this vicious cycle is to face my loniness and embrace it. I'm not saying I need to be alone all the time, what I meant to say is that sometimes I should take the whole 'being lonely' thing less serious. I should have my own time and be happy by myself without relying on people around me, and that's part of the reason why I restarted painting.

I know it's gonna be tough because honesly, who wanna be alone when you see happy couples passionately kissing in the underground or on the bus?! But for my happy-ever-after (whatever) IT HAS TO BE DONE!


Buddy Bear said...

What a beautiful, honest post! It is excellent that you are so self-aware of the issues surrounding this present (temporary) condition of yours.

One day, you'll find someone special, just believe that.

I too am single and eventually hope to meet my special guy. But I am lucky in that my three kids are still actively in my life. I am rarely "alone" and too busy to be lonely, at least not much.

Thanks again for your honesty!

Nautical Starr said...

Being lonely can be a bitch, however, I'm learning the same thing. Use that "alone" or "lonely" time to do something you love and the things you so desire will come right to you.

Anonymous said...

You have no idea how much I understand you. Reading your blog is seeing myself. I see myself in you. You are not alone, we are all together.

I'm K from Canada =)

Anonymous said...

I guess, when we feel lonley and down on ourselves, we wrongly tend to look at the rest, seeing how happy we assume they are in their lives, and wishing that could happen to you. Always remember that nothing is 100% the way we perceive things, and that loneliness is also part of our lives. I will always remember this passage from The Little Prince...its beautiful: ""Where are the people?" resumed the little prince at last. "It's a little lonely in the desert..."
"It is lonely when you're among people, too," said the snake.

God, I now want to read it, yet, one more time! LOL