I'm lonely and I feel lonely. It's something I'll never wanna admit to myself but I've slowly come to term with it especially after the recent event with Peter Pan.
The thing is, I realise that I've made the same mistake over and over again of being lonely and kept seeking a companion to love and/or to share my life and as soon as I met someone who showed me some affection, I created and lived in a bubble of 'happiness' while ignored all the obivious warning signs until one day when the bubble popped - I was hurt and sad.
This has to STOP! And one of the ways to end this vicious cycle is to face my loniness and embrace it. I'm not saying I need to be alone all the time, what I meant to say is that sometimes I should take the whole 'being lonely' thing less serious. I should have my own time and be happy by myself without relying on people around me, and that's part of the reason why I restarted painting.
I know it's gonna be tough because honesly, who wanna be alone when you see happy couples passionately kissing in the underground or on the bus?! But for my happy-ever-after (whatever) IT HAS TO BE DONE!