Monday, May 20, 2013

Guilty...

So, I've been hanging out with Peter Pan for a couple of times in the past two months and things were cool between us.

Last night, we went to cinema to see Star Trek Into the Darkness (go and watch it, it's really good) and after that, we went back to his place for a glass of wine and some TV till midnight. We hugged goodbye and I left. Once inside my car, I suddenly had this urge to ask him if I could stay over the night, I knew I was playing with fire but I sent the text anyway. Five minutes later, he replied and said he didn't feel comfortable with it and probably not a good idea for our friendship. I respected his decision and drove home.

This morning I woke up and felt really sh*t about what had happened. I sent him an apology and he said, "That's ok Willy. I was tempted too but I know it would be wrong to do so. See you Saturday x"

It's like two steps forward and one step back. Have I moved on? Hmm, maybe not as 'moved on' as I thought or would like, but I'm glad Peter Pan was sensible and made the right decision for me.

In the words of our beloved Samantha Jones from Sex and The City, "Sex with an ex can be depressing. If it's good, you don't have it anymore; if it's bad, you just had sex with an ex."

3 comments:

Ethan said...

maybe you need something/someone else to hold on to before you can truly let go of the previous

iama{GAY}tkeeper known as thegaytekeeper said...

LOVE the SATC perspective :)

Jeremiah Andrews said...

Are you stuck playing the same record over and over, expecting a different result?

We call that insanity.

You can't go backwards, only forwards.

My rule of thumb ... Never sleep with your friends. It can get ugly.

Jeremy